Unspoken Memories (Unspoken Series)

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  Unspoken Memories

  Book One of the Unspoken Series

  Copyright © 2013 by Gabbie S. Duran

  Cover art by ©Sarah Hansen at Okay Creations

  Editing done by Stephanie Lott

  Book formatting by JT Formatting

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  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, brands, media, and incidents are either the product of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously. The author acknowledges the trademarked status and trademark owners of various products referenced in this work of fiction, which have been used without permission. The publication/use of these trademarks is not authorized, associated with, or sponsored by the trademark owners.

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-One

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  Chapter Twenty-Three

  Chapter Twenty-Four

  Chapter Twenty-Five

  Chapter Twenty-Six

  Chapter Twenty-Seven

  Chapter Twenty-Eight

  Chapter Twenty-Nine

  Chapter Thirty

  Chapter Thirty-One

  Chapter Thirty-Two

  Chapter Thirty-Three

  Chapter Thirty-Four

  Acknowledgments

  This book is dedicated to all the runners, family, and friends effected by

  the tragic event that occurred on April, 15th 2013.

  They might have tried to stop us, but as runners we unite as one. We never give up,

  we keep moving forward, and we keep running on.

  I CAN HEAR voices, two to be exact, a man and a woman. They’re speaking quietly, but loudly enough that I can clearly make out their conversation. I can't open my eyes, no matter how hard I try, and they feel heavy, so I keep them closed.

  “I can't leave her, she's our money ticket!” he says in a very stressed tone.

  “How much good is she to you now? She's in a coma! We don’t know if she's ever going to wake up.” This comes from the woman, and from the way she says it, I know she isn’t happy.

  “Well, it doesn't matter, I need a little more time to try to figure out how to access the rest of the funds. The longer she's in this coma, the more time is on my side, and the more money we get.”

  Okay, this is where the conversation is getting really interesting to me. At this point I'm trying hard to open my eyes, but I keep getting pulled somewhere else, back into the darkness. My gut feeling is telling me keep my eyes closed and keep listening, so that's what I'm trying to do, I’m fighting the pull that wants to take me away.

  “Well, I'm tired of being your fuck buddy, I want more!” she demands of him in a very loud whisper.

  Fuck buddy? Why is she being a fuck buddy, and whose? But by the way she tells him this, I have a feeling that she's been his fuck buddy for a while.

  “Look, when we started this you knew to never expect more, but if she's going to be a vegetable for a while, I'm thinking things are going to change very soon.”

  This doesn’t sound good. I start to freak out, especially since I feel like a vegetable right now. No matter how hard I’m trying, I can’t move a muscle. I wonder, are they speaking about me?

  The room suddenly grows quiet, and I start to hear footsteps fading in the distance. I believe they’re leaving, because I hear the opening and closing of a door.

  I give it a couple of seconds, but the room is still silent. I can finally relax. Then all of a sudden, the darkness begins to take over again.

  I FEEL MYSELF slowly waking up again and I let out a light moan. I can feel the grumble of it traveling down my chest, and it aches. I feel so groggy and weak. I don’t want to wake up, but my body is not allowing me to fall back asleep and I try to slowly open my eyes. It’s hard at first, but after a couple of blinks, I’m successful at bringing them to a slit. My body is aching as I try to lift my arm. It feels like weights are holding it down, but I’m able to move my hand, I think.

  What is that sound? It’s a constant beeping, coming from the side of my head, and it’s speeding up as I move in that direction. I try to lift my arm to get to it, with little success because there’s something tugging at it. When I look down, I see an I.V. attached to my arm, why would I have an I.V.? I attempt to completely open my eyes. I see an older lady who is wearing nurse’s scrubs walking towards me. She must have done something, because the loud beeping is finally gone. It was making my head hurt, so I’m grateful she finally made the thing shut up.

  “Good, you’re awake,” I hear her say next to me.

  I feel her warm hand grab onto my wrist while she looks down at a watch she is wearing. I’m still confused. I have no idea where I am.

  I manage to move my head a little and take in my surroundings. It looks like I’m in a hospital room. It’s white, and almost empty, with only a couple of chairs in each corner. There’s a flat screen on the wall directly in front of me, with a clock to its side, stating it’s almost six. Underneath the clock there’s a white board with writing on it. I guess my nurse’s name is Karen, since that’s the name on the board.

  “How are you feeling Ms. Adams?” Karen says, still focusing on her watch.

  I lie there wondering why I’m even here, and how did I get here? Wait, what did she call me? Is it my name? It doesn’t sound familiar.

  I have no clue where in the world I am and I don’t like it.

  “Where am I?” I ask Karen, wondering why I would be in a hospital room.

  She looks up from her watch, with a blank face. “You’re at Washington Memorial Hospital, Ms. Adams.” Then she goes back to looking at her watch.

  I’m still confused, why is she calling me that name? “Who’s Ms. Adams?” I ask her, confused.

  She lightly snaps her head up again to look down at me, and draws in her eyebrows. Her smile has disappeared and goes directly to a frown. “Why, you are, of course,” she informs me.

  She places my wrist down back on the bed, patting it lightly. “I’ll just page your neurologist and we’ll go from there, okay?” she says as she turns and walks out of the room, leaving me there still baffled by the whole situation.

  A couple of minutes later, another lady walks into the room. I’m assuming she is my doctor because she’s wearing a white coat. She looks Indian and young. But as she’s walking in she has a smile on her face and it gives me a bit of hope.

  A bit.

  “Ms. Adams, I’m Dr. Kumar, your neurologist. How are you feeling, dear?” she enthusiastically asks me, while swiftly grabbing my chart, opening it, and beginning to review it.

  Knowing the truth will never hurt, I say bluntly, “I feel like shit and I really have to pee.”

  This makes her laugh, as she pulls out what looks like a
pen from her coat pocket, walks to the side of my bed and leans above me. I realize it’s a flashlight as she starts flashing it back and forth between my eyes, making me flinch. It burns my eyes and if my arms didn’t feel so weak, I would have swatted that darn thing out of her hand.

  Trust me, I try, but I quickly give up the notion. Once she’s done shining the death light at me she replaces it in her coat pocket and walks to the end of my bed to pick the chart back up and starts scribbling notes into it. I lay here staring at her.

  As she’s still scribbling, the nurse walks in again with a new I.V. bag and busies herself with changing it while the doctor asks me, “Ms. Adams, would you be more comfortable if I have Karen here remove your catheter so you can go to the bathroom yourself?” She is still staring down at the chart making notes.

  I nod my head in agreement, but can’t help asking again, “Who is Ms. Adams? You both keep calling me that name?”

  The doctor quickly snaps her head up, while the nurse stops fiddling with the bag and they both stare at me in shock.

  The doctor immediately looks at the nurse. “Call her fiancé, and order a CAT scan STAT.” Then she looks down at me and says, “We’ll just order some more tests to make sure there isn’t any swelling remaining and go from there, okay?” She finishes with a smile.

  Still very confused about what is going on, I nod my head in acceptance and hope that I’ll remember something in a couple of minutes. Right now the only thing I keep thinking about is the conversation I heard earlier. Or I think it was earlier. I really have no idea when it took place. It almost feels like it only happened a couple of minutes ago and I’m really anxious to find out who was in my room. But more than anything I still have to pee.

  My thoughts must have taken me away for a couple of minutes because the nurse has managed to remove my catheter and with a lot of assistance, I’m able to sit up on the bed. At first my body is wobbly and unbalanced, but after a few minutes I find the strength I am searching for and make my merry way along, holding onto the nurse for dear life. The metal stand holding the I.V. bag follows me the whole way.

  It’s hard to walk when you have something attached to your arm following you around. After the first tug at my arm, I want to yank the thing out myself. However, the nurse keeps saying I have to leave it in, since it is providing me with the fluids to increase my health.

  That is the only reason it stays in.

  After some major maneuvering, again with the nurse’s help, I’m finally able to relieve myself in the attached bathroom. I can’t go at first, knowing she is standing there staring at me. But even after asking her for some privacy, she only moves to the doorframe of the bathroom.

  Finishing up what I needed to do, and washing my hands, I take a moment to stand in front of the mirror and stare at my reflection. Other than needing to take a brush to my hair, I look perfectly fine.

  Or at least I think I do for someone who is in the hospital.

  Actually, I don’t recognize myself at all. You would think that I would at least recognize my reflection, but it doesn’t come to me. So I stand there staring at myself and take in my features.

  My hair is blonde, very long, and my eyes are a very bright green. I’m also tall. I remember being at least half a foot taller than the nurse, towering over her a bit. Another noticeable thing is that I’m very skinny. Don’t I ever eat?

  When I hear the nurse knock on the bathroom door making sure that I’m still okay, it distracts me from my thoughts, also reminding me that we have to go get my CAT scan done right away. I exit the bathroom and allow her to lead me to the bed, laying me back down.

  An hour later, after being put through a cocoon-like machine, as I’m being wheeled toward my room, I see a man rushing in my direction. He’s practically running when he walks and he looks exhausted. I don’t know who this man is, but by the way he’s looking straight at me and still walking in my direction, he knows me.

  He looks to be in his mid-thirties and he’s wearing an expensive looking suit. He’s lean, and tall, but not too tall. He has disheveled black hair, as if he’s been running his hands through it. He has stress lines around his face, but at this moment his face is lit up and he’s happy to see me.

  “Oh honey, you’re finally awake, I've been so worried about you,” he says as he reaches me, giving me a kiss on my forehead. I’m really confused about who he is because I don’t recognize him. But when my mind takes in his voice, realizing that it sounds very familiar, I panic.

  If I were still hooked up to the monitor at this moment I'm pretty sure it would be making the crazy noises from earlier, because my heart rate is going crazy. First it feels like it had stopped, and now it's accelerating because I'm freaking out.

  This is the voice, the male voice I heard the last time I heard anything, but he’s alone this time. I immediately start looking around, thinking about the other mystery voice, the one that belongs to the woman, expecting to hear it any minute. But I don’t.

  He follows, as the nurse continues to push me back into my room and once we're all in the room, he starts attacking the doctor and nurse with different questions. There are so many, it’s even confusing to me. Although the most important one is how much longer I'm going to be here now that I’ve woken up. That particular question is the one I care about the most, because I'm pretty sure when I leave here I don't want it to be with this guy. The uncomfortable feeling I’m getting from him is not making me feel good.

  I keep staring at the guy, hoping that I would recognize him somehow, but I can’t. He seems worried about me, so obviously he must be someone important. However, I think about the ominous conversation that took place that included his voice.

  Wanting to know who he is, I demand, “Who are you?” I say out loud, looking directly at him.

  He snaps his head to look at me and he’s disoriented, like I just asked the stupidest question in the world. At this point it sounds pretty stupid to me too, but I really need to know who this stranger is.

  He frowns, bringing his lips into a flat line, and finally he says, “I'm Bill, your fiancé.”

  Now I'm screwed, I think. I'm pretty sure that this was the voice I heard with the woman the last time I tried waking up. But, why would my fiancé be someone else's fuck buddy? I don’t understand. Right now my life is starting to feel like some kind of soap opera and I’m obviously the starring actress.

  They’re all still looking at me, as if they’re waiting for me to say something.

  “Abigail, are you sure you’re feeling okay?”

  If my throat weren’t hurting so much, I would be saying right now: No you dumb ass, I just woke up, my body feels like shit, and you guys keep calling me a name I don’t recognize.

  Another thing to add to the list is that I don’t trust them! But I keep my mouth shut knowing this is the best thing to do. However, I ask again, knowing that I still need an answer. “Who’s Abigail?”

  Ignoring my question, Bill turns to the doctor. “What’s wrong with her, why doesn’t she know who she is?” he demands, pointing his hand in my direction.

  Looking perplexed over the whole situation herself, she answers him, “She seems to have had a bit of a memory loss.” The doctor gives him a calming look like this is normal. “She may just need time to recover properly; it can happen with patients in her situation.”

  Shaking his head, Bill grabs the bridge of his nose with his thumb and forefinger, sighing to himself. He’s still quiet, like he's concentrating on what he's going to say next. I think he’s still shocked.

  I hate that they won’t give me any detailed answers.

  “What happened to me?” I ask, looking between Bill and the doctor.

  Everybody is looking at me, still very uncertain whether to tell me or not.

  Bill walks up to my bedside, taking one of my hands into his, and drops his head, looking gently at my face.

  He takes a breath and begins, “A friend of ours was having a party at a hotel downtown
, and as usual we had a room there so you could get ready. As we were waiting for the elevator to go down to the party, you became impatient, and decided to take the stairs instead. You were wearing some really high heels and lost your footing on one of the steps and hit your head pretty badly on the way down.” He pauses like he’s concentrating on what to say next, then carries on, “When you arrived at the hospital you had some really bad swelling in your brain, so the doctor here suggested that we put you in an induced coma.”

  I’m trying to absorb all the information he’s just given me, then I look over to the doctor, still really confused about the whole situation.

  “How long have I been in a coma?” I whisper, staring at the wall ahead of me, holding back the tears that are fighting to come out.

  She looks to Bill first, then directly back at me answering, “It’s been a little over four months since the swelling in your brain reduced and we reversed the medication. You didn’t wake up right away,” she calmly states, as if reassuring me everything is fine.

  I look over in Bill’s direction and ask again, “Who are you?” I want confirmation.

  He’s now starting to look irritated by my question, but he responds again. “I’m Bill, your fiancé, baby.”

  His answer still throws me for loop and I panic a little.

  Why would my fiancé want me to stay in a coma? He had looked relieved to see me awake, but I keep replaying the conversation in my head, wanting to doubt it. I know what I heard. It was loud and clear, even if my eyes weren’t open.

  Another thing that comes to mind, is why does he have someone else as a fuck buddy?

  My panic is obvious to Bill, so he says, “We’ve been together for over a year now. We met at one of your shows over two years ago when I became your agent and we started dating a little while later. It was love at first sight for me.” He tries to reassure me with a smile. But I’m not buying it.

  I look over at the doctor with a look like, “Please tell me he’s kidding.” From the way she’s looking at me, I know she believes his story. Bill looks up to the doctor and begins asking how soon I’ll be able to go home.